So it's 5/17

Today, even at this ungodly hour in the morning is my ex's birthday. I've already talked to her for a while. I think that I'm starting to fall in love with her again. We talk regularly, pretty much everynight. We're on diffrent sides of the country and I'm sure that any one that has tried to deal with that will understand the difficulties that come with it. She's a really good person, intellegent and beautiful. It kind of makes me wonder what she see's in me.

She's been there through a lot of my life. Through my felony, troubles in school, my drunken stupors, all the illegal activities that it was my mistake to make. She's never really been "There," but she's always been there. You know what I mean. She's got a lot going for her, she's never gotten in trouble, and has always taken the high road. Makes me wonder if I've got anything good to offer her. Sometimes I back away cause I know that she deserves better than a lost soul like I could ever give her.

It's a good thing she doesn't know about this blog. I wouldn't want her to read this and know how I really feel. I wish her the happiest of all days on her birthday. With any luck I'll get to talk to her later too.

Goodnight Gracie. I'll see you soon.