I've been away for a little bit.

I've been away for a little bit, just like the tittle says. I haven't written in my blog since last Thursday, my birthday I believe. I've been really busy with school, and spending my extra time learning to play the guitar. I'm picking it up rather quickly, most likly due to the fact that I've played music before. I used to play Baritone and Trumpet. Yea yea yea, I was in band. At least it's helping me out now. I've been doing well in school as well, and that's a first. It's a weird feeling to show up more than 50% of the time, and always have your homework done. I'm excited about this. I still haven't really met anyone around here to hang out with, nor have I met any women, and to top it off, I'm jobless. Right now I'm concentrating on making myself a better person. That's going well. Alas, all this leaves me with time to burn, thus leading to getting my homework done and time to do the things I want.

Interestingly enough, I talked to "M" the other day, well actually almost everyday. She's going to attempt to come and visit in August. She's already requested to take the days off. I think she's getting kinda of wierded out by the whole thing. Some days she talks to me about how excited she is to see me, and some days, it's whether or not I'm serious "That I wouldn't be upset about her dating someone, where she's at." It's kinda awkward to leave a conversation off on that, and I don't know quite how to take it.

Tonight she talked about whether it's possible to get together, "Without expectations." Don't worry kiddies, it's not that she's trying to tell me that she's avoiding our past relationship, hell she hasn't bought the tickets, so if that was the case, then I probably wouldn't see her at all. I think it's cause we haven't seen each other in 6 years or so. I think she' really want's to be able to make a rational decision about our future when she visits, whether it's a future apart, or a future together, as more than friends, less than friends, or just friends. I think she want's to find anwsers, and she doesn't want those anwsers hindered by our past. See, now me.... I want a beer.

Mister Marcus

The nice thing about my wishes, is it's much easier to keep wishing your wishes when you don't forget to enjoy the small ones. Don't get me wrong, Dream away, and Dream big, but don't forget to enjoy it when ANY of them true. Don't take anything for granted.