So I'm back

It's been a little while, sorry I've been gone. I've been getting my head on much more straight. I realized that I don't have much more of my two year school left till i have to go find a four year. Thankfully there are a lot of schools in the area, because simply I don't want to leave here.

I'm doing well, M comes out in less than two weeks. That's good news. We'll have to see how that goes. I'm excited and sure that It's going to go well, but getting nervous. We haven't seen each other in nearly 4 or 5 years.

So to catch up real quick, schools well, life's well, I'm staying outta trouble, guitar is going really well, so the status quo is unchanged.

I'll try and write more often when I get time.

Mister Marcus

So I'm used to my night Terrors....

So I had night terrors my whole life, my whole younger life.

Till one night terror I had, where I fought my fear, and refused to hide. I refused to be paralized by fear. I grew stong. My hate overtook me. My courage arose. I fed on my hate in refusal to submit. I stripped myself naked in front of myself and my terror. Then I rebuilt myself, right then and there. My fear had no chance. I chased down my nightmare down the endless halls, and around numerous corners.

When I came to the end, and flipped on the light and awoke.

I had been sleepwalking, and I found myself anew.

I was looking into a mirror.

You've never seen evil

Till you catch yourself looking into your own soul.

I have walked with monsters and I started into the blackness of my own soul and potential for evil, there is nothing more frightenng.

Mister Marcus

Everyone agree's Heroes have faced evil, (that's the defintion on hero,) only the truest Heroes have faced their OWN evil, and refused to submit. You learn not to fear the nightmares that become common to one's self. That's how you end up on the bones of giants.

The toughest bones to climb are your own.

I'm gonna be a hero.

So I'm 25

So I've done a lot of things that I'm not proud of

So my mistakes define who I'm gonna be

So I'm to old to dream

So I'm to old to think that I can make a diffrence

So I'm gonna be a fucking hero. You're gonna hear about me on your local news channel. I refuse to settle for anything less. I've got a whole lotta amazing abilities that make me who I am. If my "amazing abilities" are just my imagination, good, cause it's my imagination that will keep me standing on the bones of giants, well past the time you are gone. Everyone looks at a child, and accepts thier dreams and imagination, as nothing more than that, "dreams and imagination." I FOR ONE, am keeeping my childish imagination, and my childish dreams intact. I refuse to think anything else. :: Closes eyes, and holds hands to ears ::

"NYAAAAAA NYAAAAAAA I CAN"T HEAR YOU."

I'm a mistake... I'm a failure... I'm the one caught with the prints on the gun... I'm the one that does nothing right.... I'm the one that's going to change the future.

I'm the one that's going to change YOUR future...

Jake - But your ego obscures reality says:

I'm not surprised. With a propensity for crime comes an intensity of conviction that can't help but spill into other aspects of life.

Jake - But your ego obscures reality says:
I can't tell you the number of nights I've walked the streets frustrated and tired wishing you still lived up this way cuz then I would have a place to crash for the evening or at least go and sit up and bullshit until the wee hours of morning :)

>Jake - But your ego obscures reality says>
:) You are a better person than you think you are Mr. Marcus.

A man's intellegence shouldn't be measured by how much he knows... I mans intellegence should be measured by how much he doesn't know. It should be measured by how much he is able to see how little he knows... OR even better, his (or her) ability to see the limits of thier perspective. The smartest (and quite possibly) the most level headed person I know is Jake. For Jake to give me a compliment means more to me than anyone could imagine... I've learned lessons as a "felon in learing," is take care of your own. (This is a lesson thatI have learned better than most. I've stood in front of a judge or "specialist detective" three times, always asking, "If you tell us who was with you, we'll cut your sentence."

Let me tell you.... you don't have the balls to tell them, "to fuck off." Well I did. Just like a Steve McQueen movie.

I will always be willing to sacrifice for Jake. I will take care of Jake, and his family like they are "me and mine." I could never hope to be as good of people as Jake and his family. So the possibility of a sacrafice of me and mine, (or my life, or anything important to me) would seem insignificant in comparison, cause Jake and Sarah, and thier little one would be worth any sacrifice to me.

Mr. Jake, I take some solice in the fact that you won't see this, but not only do I got your back, but I would take "too much" enjoyment in slowly carving up any asshole that ever threatened you and yours.

Were talking, a pair of pliers, a sharp knife, a shovel, my boots, several plastic trashbags, a good trunk, a hole in the desert, lemon juice, a Beretta 9mm, a bag of limestone, garden cutters, a coat hanger, a mathmatically accomidating length of rope, brass knuckles, lighter fluid, and a leatherman, all at your disposal. When (if) you need it that is.

Mr. Marcus, Showing his colors

I guess a HERO is all in the persepective. Eye of the beholder and all that shit.

You stupid dumbfucks

Yea you heard me. Seems to me that America's lawmakers are just as idiotic as anyone could have believed. Hell, I live here and I'm surprised to find that America is so full of dumb fucks. We've started the process to pass an ammendment banning the "desecration" of the American flag.

It's not a matter of what the flag is, or should be, which is nothing more than cloth. It's what the flag stands for, which is the ability to say what you want, when you want, even when that means speaking out against the government. The american people speaking out against the government when we think they are wrong isn't our right, it's our responsibility.

What we've got here is a perfect example of why Americans are viewed as half-assing our jobs. As the saying goes.... "When you get mad at your job, you don't quit, you go in and do it really half assed... THAT"S the American way."

I'm tired of seeing politicians doing what they need to do to get reelected, not what's best for the country. Most of these ignorant, rich, idiotic assholes would re-vote in slavery, poll tax (24th ammenment), segregration, and discontinue the "women can vote" (19th ammendment) if they thought it would keep them in office.

IIf you give even the slimmest concern of your rights, and wether you should be able to say what you way, when you want, and how you want, you need to respect the fact that you have a voice that you are required to use. If you don't see it, y ou need to open your eyes. Our soldiers, heroes, educated politicians haven't fought for so many years so that we can roll over and give our government the ability to strike down our intellegent speach.

We letting them rape OUR rights. As we Americans are allowing it, our politicians are changing THEIR laws, and how THEIR laws affect our lives. Last time I checked, those assholes in Washington aren't our voice. They aren't us. They don't decide what's best for us. They are OUR servants, if they don't do their job well enough, it's OUR job to do what needed. It's about fucking time we did.

P.S. I'm not threatening America or anyone, I'm doing what every American should, which is question America's processes. Only when you truly love the flag, and everything it STANDS for, then you can understand the purpose and impact of burning the symbol it's self. Think about everything you wouldn't be afraid to burn, what's NOT important, then imagine burning something that means something to you. What's the impact of that. Why's it so important. Why are we letting someone take this away?

(The American President)

America isn't easy. America is advanced citizenship. You've got to want it bad, because it's gonna put up a fight. It's gonna say, "You want free speech? Let's see you acknowledge a man whose words make your blood boil who is standing center stage and advocating at the top of his lungs that which you would spend a lifetime opposing at the top of yours. You want to claim this land as the 'land of the free'? Then the symbol of your country cannot just be a flag. The symbol also has to be one of its citizens exercising his right to burn that flag in protest. Now show me that, defend that, celebrate that in your classrooms. Then you can stand up and sing about the 'land of the free.'"

(The American President second quote)

Oh, you only fight the fights you can win? You fight the fights that need fighting!

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P.P.S. My prayers go out to London and it's people.

P.P.P.S. It's not like the American people give a shit about this anyway.

Mister Marcus

God Bless a Half Assed America